the words of a circu$freak

i’m trying so hard to clean myself up, cant you see.
sit still & wait a little bit, my butterfly.
for now, just watch me crash & burn.
sit close to the fire & smile at the flames,
watch my tears put it out, with a satisfying “hiss”.
let the smoke burn your eyes & learn to love the pain.
because, pain, my dear, is what i am.
im breaking, in the process of. cant you see.
would you hold the pieces tight, til i am safely under your skin.
hold my hand through the crash and burn with me.
& let’s love, until we die away to ashes.